Hospice Wish upon a Star

Here at our local hopice we have a huge tree and they sell light like candles that people can buy in memory of a loved one and write a message and its added to the tree by the staff weeks prior to the huge getogether were they light the tree and sing carols .... im so sad i cant go coz of my agrophobia . Its so upsetting everything just gets ruined coz of this im so upset hS anyone else suffered And can give me sum tips plz x